As I embark upon another journey, chase another dream, it has occurred to me (and this is certainly not the first time) how much
people don’t appreciate others searching and going for what they want
if it’s considered too often or too many times. Of course, that leads
to the questions; how many dreams is too many? Did I miss the cut off
for dream chasing? Am I past it and didn’t know? And just who exactly
makes the dreaming rules up because I would like to speak to them right
now! I am no where near finished. Neither is my husband and well, my
kids are just getting started!
Now I will admit that I actually did think I was done dreaming. Only because my ultimate dream was to be a wife and Mother. And I achieved
that. So when I settled into Motherhood, I tried to turn off other
aspects of myself, particularly the intuitive part. I just felt that I
had done my work in that and helped myself and others as far as I was
going to with that. I brushed my hands of it and jumped into Motherhood
which has proved to be just as awesome as I thought it was going to
be. And I have been completely happy and satisfied in that for several
years. But in the end, turns out it wasn’t so much up to me and me
alone. The Intuitive Counseling part came back with such a force, I
could not ignore it and instead have switched roles and gears several
more times. And along with that, new dreams have evolved and once again
I am chasing away and it is such a nice feeling. In fact, I am a
little surprised I didn’t know better before. To think, me, Jamie,
would only live through the lives of my children from here on out…well,
that’s just silly. I will enjoy their dreams. To the fullest. I will
support them and encourage them to do and be all that they can be and
now I know I will teach them to never stop dreaming. Thank goodness I
figured this out now!
So having lived a life that is non mainstream, I am used to people not understanding me. I know my lifestyle makes people, including and
namely family uncomfortable. I did not just follow the idea of: go to
school forever, graduate, get a degree, decide what I wanted to be for
the next 50 years at the age of 19, go on to live to work, nose to the
grind, get married, have children and continue to work just to support
that family. Instead I have chosen to and continue to choose to go
against the grain. I did not graduate college, although I got very
close. I have moved around, including all the way across the country
while the rest of my family stays in close proximity to one another. I
did get married and have children in “logical acceptable” steps but
have made many parenting choices that has raised many an eyebrow. And
now as an adult, as a parent and wife, I am a psychic *gasp*! And
quite a successful one. Oh, but it doesn’t end there. The real
question is; am I a Mom, birth doula? radio show host, or am I
writing a book, or do I want to be on TV??! And what the hell is up
with wanting to live on an RV with two small children? Don’t I know my
children MUST attend school with other children their age and
homeschooling means they will be unsocialized and weird? The answer is
this: I am and do all those things, oh and there will be more to come,
so you might as well get used to it! I’m one of the lucky ones that
explores every nook and cranny in life and takes each experience to a
whole new level. I’m not afraid to win/lose, to fail or succeed. I’m
not afraid to laugh at myself, or to laugh with you, at me. As it
stands I cannot think of one single dream that I have truly wanted that I
haven’t made come true. Now that’s not to say that every single thing
I’ve wanted to do has happened. Sometimes a dream starts out full speed
and then I realize somewhere along the way that it’s not the direction I
want to go after all. So while you may still be sitting in the dust of
my last dream, I have sped on to another. And I’m using that as a
metaphor. I don’t actually think you are sitting around just waiting to
see what I finally settle on. Which is good, because there will be no
settling in this lifetime. Not for me and my family. I also want to
add, that sometimes my dreams take much longer to unfold completely than
even I realize it’s going to. My dream car took 6 years to get. My
dream country to visit took 10 years to get to. Maybe my dream of being
on Television will take 20 years. I’m okay with that. Are you?
The point is this. Why can’t we encourage and accept one anothers' lifestyles, choices and dreams? Why does it feel like there is a limit
on how long, or how much we are willing to support one another? Oh, I’m
sorry, you have already tried three professions and I encouraged all of
them, but now I’m done, now you are just being silly! It reminds me of
how Mothers of many children (3+) have often told me that after two,
people don’t seem to be as happy about it. Like they think you are
just adding another one to the crowd, so why celebrate it? Why throw a
baby shower or Blessingway? Like each child is not different or as
special, or now you are just gloating because you are obviously so
fertile. Listen, I accept you. I accept if you like the “norm”. I am
happy for you if you got your college degree and white picket fence and
2.5 children. I really am! I have only one stipulation for happiness
towards other people and their lifestyles: As long as it’s your choice
and you are living the way you want to live and upholding standards you
have chosen for yourself, then I am happy for you and I support you
completely. I don’t care how many years it has taken. I don’t care how
many things seemed to have failed along the way, because I know you
haven’t failed anything; you have learned a lot and grown immensely with
each experience. I love that! You want to live as a pauper because
you feel you want to teach people a life of simplicity? Okey dokey. You
want to live as a billionaire and own every expensive toy their is.
Well, hey, it ain’t my life, it’s yours. And I encourage you to own it
and make it everything YOU want it to be. Do you give me the same
right? I hope so. Because without support from one another it can be
lonely. No matter how awesome the dream is, support from one another is
what builds you up and makes you strong.
So in answer to the question at hand: What is Jamie going to be/do when she grows up??!! I’m going to be and do it all! I hope I can count on your love through any and all of it. Lets always support one
another dreams and encourage one another to never stop chasing!
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